Been listening to this song after ytd(:
Girl intro-ed me this song. damn nice & meaningful uhs.

一个人生活

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
感觉如果要走谁能说 NO
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情是个梦而我睡过头
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

& i listen till i cried. (:
I wonder. when can i become stronger in mentally (:

Some things are meant to be. Yet some things arent meant to be.

Mood is like..
Idk how to describe ? (:

I'm afraid.
Yet i've to be more strong.
I want time to turn back.
Yet it'll never be possible (:
I want to be happy.
Yet i've to put on a fake smile sometimes.

I'm tired ..

Hoping to dream of you somedays(:
Beloved.
11months le wor since u've left us & the realistic world.
& 1 more month to your 1year death anni .
Times really does flies .

There's lots of people coming in & out of our lives.
Who're those who will stay till end of journey? (:
I wonder toos..

Yeahs.
I wished i could see you right now.
& hugged you.
I dont wish that day to be the last hug.
& that last hug is also the last goodbye(:
Which is .
fucking hard to accept it .
No reasons. No words for me. Your promises.
Yet u're just gone like this...
I should be hating you for leaving me alone . Yet u claim to love me alot when u're alive.
But i know i cant do it.
Cause i still thinking maybe i'm the one who cause your death indirectly..

Christmas is coming.
I still rmb . where you bring me last year(:
Cinealeisure. Only the two of us.
& u told your friends that u wont join them for drinking just to accompany me.
Cause u know i dont like you to drink.

I miss the times.
Everynight . when u fetch me home .
The 真心话 we used to say to each other, at my house downstairs.
No quarrels.
those Happy moments.
End up. it's still a illusion.
Happy moments dont last (:

All those sweet things, memories .
I will never forget .
It'll always be at the stored at a lil part of my mind & heart.

我真的好想你..
好想你回到我的身边..

i wonder.
If u'll still here.
How long would we last?
& Those promises u said to me; would it all come true?

hahahas.
Guess it's been so long . i've been talking abt all this agn.
Sorry readers(:
Fuck care abt this post .

Just a place to let me vent out my sorrowness in awhile,.

All those words Girl&me chatted abt.
Makes me remind of you ~ you & you ~
Idk how my life would become.

喜欢；而不敢接受。
害怕；历史重演

Sometimes. felt so fuck-ed up.
Yet there's nothing i can tell myself to do.
& only bring myself to drop into it.
When i know i cant commit ..
Cause HE does leave a big impact in my life & my heart.

& i dont trust guys(:
It's all talks & talks & talks .
Lols. if actions dont mean it , Just STFU :D
i dont need those words & sweet-talks.
I'm nt a 3yrs old kid.
Use mouth who don't know? O.O Lols.
True. My tears have been wasted on some guys who arent worth it(:
Which i think is fking wastage of water.

Indeed ; im a crybaby.
haha(:

Alrights . i should stop this emo-fking long post(:
Get myself cool-ed down.
& prepare to go out alr(:
Byes!

ENJT's ; i wish i can trust you~ Still, it's difficult.
cause u also once betrayed my trust(:
But indeed u've cheer me up alot.
tyvm.

Haas. Time to update(:
Just reached home. Fking tired. Still, i feel like blogging.
Thus shall blog before i sleep.

Recently many many things have happened who those are ard me.
Shagness in me too(:
Idk why, just wish see everybody close to me. To be happy. & im contented ^^

Papa. Must look on e positive side ok!
& cheer up. dont ever think u're a burden to me(:
Rmb how u always be my listening ear last time?
U always accompanied me in audi .
Cheer up me up etc; or maybe emo tgt! Hahaha!
Nuer 24/7 here for u la dey!
:D
& wish u & twinny . Ahem la hor :x LOL!

& Girl.
It's e first time i saw u cried.
& i hope i wont see it anymore. it's tmd xintong lahs-.-
Jitao idk what to do..
It's takes time to heal(:
i know it's aint easy. cause i'm stuck in this dilema too.
Jiayous ok! Much loves.

Uhms. it's been 6days since i've not blogged .

Did nothing much also .
Just working & go out with normal cliques(:

Went XG ytd . & stayed from morning till night zxc!
& Before that day. we tonned at Kovan lan ):
Hoho! we're imba ppl. Lols. :x
Meet up with lots of ppl.
& talked about the past (: so reminscing indeed.
Get to see weixiong too! Glad that he's recovering fast. Thou still heartpain see him like this.
But i did enjoyed myself after so long..

Ohyahs! & i finally get to watch another movie.
Zombie land!
Fking lame & funny show :x But overall nt bad lahs .
Lols. Machiam like L4D in e movie .
Thou i kana chua sai alot times. -.- Idk why also . LOL!
I want watch 2012 lahs ):
& Lots of nice movies coming up .. ~~

So is either cube, Ps , Kovan lan , Tantrick & Home! (:

Nothing much to updates also uhs . :>
Cause i also forget what did i do past few days alr .
Only rmb all this . ;haha!

Somehow .
I felt someone words are v.contradicting(:
If u're gona tell people u're going be a hongster.
Dont come tell me or write in your blog that u're missing me..
When ..
Hahas. nvm(:
U read my blog, I does read your blog toos.
But i'm not going to say anything anymore (:
Speechless . :>

Have a nice chat with girl just now(:
Lots of things to talk-ed about .
Sudden felt .
so sad? Lols. idk why toos.
I guess only she can understands how i feel .

Family . is giving me problems also.
Sometimes..
I feel that i should really . But still; it's stupid(:
I tried my best . Yet what i get back . Is not i wanted .
Only a word. that affected me alot.
Happy family? I wished i've too(:

&.
Once things are gone. it'll never be back to e same anymore(:
What should i do now? :D
I've no idea toos...

Mr NgJunTangElgin:x
Thanks for being there for me this few days :D
& for goodness sake. Pls takecare of your health-.-
It's like u going to faint anytime :x
Weakling la you! zxc.
& Rmb eat the medicine i gave you; arbo im gona chop you ! ;wild!

i'm missing you~
Haha. it's going be 1year.
& im afraid that day to come.....
Still; i've to face it someday.

Blog-hopping & went to see my baby's blog(:
some words to tell her..

to: Babyxin(:
Sometimes. i knw it's difficult to move on .
Or maybe faking a smile to everyone to show tat u're happy .
But indeed u're not(:
it's tough rights? But still, dont force yourself when u arent happy at all.
This feeling everybody sure have before de.
Nt that we wanted to say u, but also for your own good.
we also dont wish to see you crying agn&agn..

No point keep tiring yourself , & keep ton right ?
U last time isnt like that de (:
Rmb , what you always tell me; beauty sleep !
It's take time baby (:
We, as friends are still always for you.
thou u talk halfway i fall asleep tat time lahs :x
But sure, i'll be a listening ear if u need it .

& try dont work pub if can uhs(:
Boat quay pub , i'm seriously worried for you. Zhu also worried for you.
But hope u can listen what we said uhs.
Nobody's hating you.
sometimes, somethings indeed u said or did make me bth/a lil bit sot.
But still , i also treated u as my baby uhs. & i does know your pattern.
i just dont wish u changed for e worst.

Much loves(:

--

Sunday night toh-ed at home till nxt day(:
woke-up ard 11plus am .
Nua-ed , & audi-ed .
I'm so happy that all e misunderstandings is cleared .
Everythings back to normal.

ENJT's woke up & we msn-ed till 5plus.
Then we make our way out to meet each other at tpy(:

& went to cube find Bff, as we alr missed our 2012 at 645pm.
Reached cube, saw darren ! Lols. long time bo saw him alr.
Thus, went to fagg-ed & chitchat(:
After that, he went back to cube for exp compe warm-up.
while i & ENJT went to 6th floor find them .
Haa. Bff gave me a Stitch & 3 more soft toys .
I gave one to Girl & one to ENJT (:

HappyHappy, thou spend 12bucks wanting to get the big one.
But still, it's diff . ):
I know they've tried their best also le ! Thanks Bff&Jae(:

Fagged & slack outside cube awhile.
After tat went back to cube . as they all went off alr.
On comp & played audi.
Participate in exp & cpl competition. but one dc-ed , one out(:
Still , i've fun with ENJT's uhs.

Played till ard 11plus . Then i,ENJT's & darren mrt-ed back to serangoon.
& went to ENJT's lan (:
But darren went back first ; as he's tired .
& ENJT's sick! Cause he's having a fever uhs.

Let him rest awhile (:
& kenneth came to find me. & we went to eat roti prata .
Then went back . & Tat's bendan lost his phone ):
Idk which idiot took it._. somemore it's inside the counter.

Audi-ed&Dota-ed for that night (:
First time got mega kill twice :x happyhappy! thou it's Insane AI.
& i played with my IMBA ENJT._. he's owning de ok. Lol.
But im still contented :x

i did fall asleep for awhile :x andreaGirl came to find us too.
Her couple came also after not long .. But also went off first (:

Played till ard 10plus am.
& girl,kenneth & me went home first.(:

Accompanied Girl to mrt & i took bus home.

Yahs. tat's all for just now(:
Pictures(:
Me&Bff gave me the stitch(:
Mr.ENJT 杰作
-i force him take photo :x-
-His retarded & emo face- Hoho! :x

& DA WEIJIE going in army soon!
Better takecare of yourself alrights(: cya soon agn~.
im sorry that today i didnt went to xg when i said i'll.
stupid gastric & pure lazy-ness uhs. titi slp nia x.x
SO.. Jiayous in army uhs!
(:

& MR JUNTANG!
Better takecare of your health (:
& dont act yi ge strong i tell you. u not like me want :x
aizai ok! See you fever like so xinku like tat .__________.
zxc if u dont takecare, im going to kill you :x Lmaos.
26ths(:

my gastric is acting up again.
abcdefg sot! -.-